What I don't understand is why I have the worst luck in my life! I can't believe the best guys who have ever been nice to me are just screwing with my head because they need something to boost their egos! I think this is a bunch of crap!
Why will guys go through such great lengths to make themselves feel good, but they won't do crap as to change the way they treat girls for an honest-to-God relationship?
"I love you, I really do..." I get from him.
"Then why don't you act like it? I don't believe you! Why don't you prove it to me?" I ask.
"I am not going to break up with my girlfriend for nothing." He says, and he changes the subject.
This is what puts me off. How can the stupid bastard say something like that?!?!?! What am I? Nothing? Some invisible piece of nothing that has no emotions and is so worthless that I don't matter?
Then I get this, "Would you kiss me?"
WTFuck no I wouldn't kiss you, you fucking bastard! You want to kiss me? Kiss my ass and then let me kick you in the ball sacs so you won't be able to produce any jack-off mother fuckers like you!!!!!!
See... this is how I feel. I don't know... maybe I have the worst luck with guys...the guy I was totally into at my school has his last day here today and he has to finish making up blocks at adult school.
What is up with me?
The guys I like either:
- Really horrible dousches
- Totally long distance
- Have a girlfriend
- Are really "Bad Boys"
- Don't finish high school the right way
- Haven't even tried finishing high school at all....
Wow.... this is interesting. dear_avery... I need feedback and MAYBEEE even therapy! D: